Day.... 29?

I am soooo very sorry that I've been neglecting my blogging duties so terribly for the past two weeks. Things have been so hectic, and I have had zero time to sit down and write.... not only that but I've been shamefully neglecting my diet because things have just been so hectic here lately what with school and the big awaited Halloween party and whatnot... but I'm back on track now starting today, and I'm going to make it all back up.

On the plus side, I've weighed myself today because of the Halloween contest. Annndddddd, *drumroll* I've lost 10lbs! I'm a little bit disappointed it's not more, but after the last two weeks I've had, I'm not really surprised. but still, I'm pretty happy about it!

The Halloween party went surprisingly well, I ended up partying all weekend (ughhhh so much alcohol), and had a long conversation with my ex about what we want out of this newfound relationship of ours (aka hooking up) and we both agreed that 1) its nobody's goddamn business, and 2) we're not looking for anything out of it right now. Thank god.

So, today's a 200 day, and I've already had about 100cals in cereal, so I'll probably hold off the rest for dinner tonight, and then go for a nice run and hill workout to try and get back on track. I'm hoping for this week to be a huge workout week for me. Fingers Crossed! It's now less than 2 months until my trip! EEK! I have less than 2 months to loose 20 more *(hopefully 30 though) more pounds! So let's go hard!

I hope everyone is doing well! I've got to go and OCD clean my bedroom like nobody can imagine! (I'm superrrr anal about the cleanliness of my bedroom and since I haven't been home all weekend, It's looking a little worse for wear). Anyways, I fully intend on catching up on everyone else's lives ASAP! (aka hopefully tonight)

Love yas! xo

LAST EXAM! in T - 4.5 hours

So excited! My last exam is tonight 7-10! wish me luck! I've been studying all day, but I just cant anymore (and I'm not even through the material yet... so I'm basically screwed)

Also found out today that I'm coming down with some good ole fashioned strep throat... which is a pisser because it means that all of my awesome work on the ABC diet and all that restricting is going to go to hell for the next week. It's not that I eat a ton when I'm sick, but I know it isn't a good idea for me to follow the ABC limits while I'm trying to get better... I've made that mistake before, never again. And unfortunately, when I am sick with a fever and such, all I want to eat is creamy tomato soup, ginger ale with sugar added and crackers... but since it's strep, that means that I might as well add banana ice cream on top of that because it's all I ever want when my throat is all closed up and feeling shitty. And yes, I don't eat a lot of any of this, I'm still good at doing it all moderately, but still it adds up, sosadddd, and the Halloween party is only 3 days away! I need to get better! I just do!

Anyways, back to studying! Hope everyone is awesome!  xo

Dearest Beth

To Beth's comment on my last posting, I started typing this out as a quick response, but then it spiraled out of control, so I decided to just make it a post instead. So here goes:

haha i lovveee you-
Yes I'm able to breathe, but I'm slowly running out of sanity. Ohmagee, SO MANY EXAMS! thankfully though, I'm not too stressed about them which is good, I'm just taking it one day at a time.

My eating has been all over the place, my mind is so on these exams its ridiculous, generally I've been doing well basically staying pretty close to or way under my food limit, unfortunately today hasn't gone well at all, I had a work meeting where we were cooked breakfast and such, and then I realized how starving I was (when I dont eat, I don't notice, but when I do eat, she'gon. I just chow down)

Anywhooo, well after my breakfast meeting (aka around 2pm today) I couldnt focus on studying because I was so hungry, so I ate some toast and eggs (but at least it wasn't all crap junk food) and as much as I regret it, hopefully my resulting good grades on this exam will balance out my self loathing to make up for todays failure. That's what I'm hoping anyways. Plus I now feel like shit because I ate (like physically feel like crap, my tummy hurrrrts because I'm not used to eating so much at one time) I'm about to go on a study break right now (aka hour long track workout) to hopefully break even for what I ate today, and then tomorrow I think I'll fast to make up for it. Actually,  I anticipate on just saying 'fuck it' and fasting (or eating MINIMALLLL) for the rest of the week too, just so I'm not trying to freak out over what I'm eating as well as my exams- plus halloween party this weekend... The less I eat now, the better I'll look and feel on Saturday!

Look for my next post Wednesday night or Thursday morning once my exams are DONEZO!

Love you all! xo



Edit: ps, re: my last post... oops, I slept with him the next night... baaadddd Leigha. But on the plus side, I think we're both on the same page that dating isn't high on my to do list (haha especially since I'm in love with Ducky)- but it was a great confidence booster. ;)

SO BUSYYYY OMG

I'm so thankful that my lovely Beth hasn't updated since day 16 either, because I'm not at the moment either!
This is just a super fast post to say that I haven't forgotten you guys! I've been so insanely busy with school midterms and such last week and the week coming up, so don't expect much from me until after the 31st. Plus My computer has been sitting in the kitchen all week to force myself to study lol.  I'm very sorry but c'est la vie.
Day 17 and 18 went great, went as planned and worked out like CRAZYYY even though it's been pouring rain, but I feel like the less I eat, the better the opportunity for me to workout and get max calorie burn :)
Last night was particularly interesting. I kind of mixed up day 17 and 18 (because I was busy busy studying for my Thursday Midterm, so whenever my roommates came up for snacks, I'd have a bite with them (instead of fasting) I probably only ended up eating like... 60 cals max, but still I felt guilty so I just fasted yesterday. Anyways, last night I hung out with my ex (we're still super tight- its what happens when you date for 5 years) anyways sooo hung out, no big deal, ended up play fighting, nooo biggie, slept over, still not a big deal (our friend group is super close, sleepovers happen all the time, even if it is with the ex, its not a big cause for concern. But old habits die hard (even if it has been over a year since we broke up) and we ended up rather close and cozy during our sleep (stilll not a big deal- except for the fact that we both still have feelings for eachother. It sucks, he's a great guy, my first love and I still love him to death and back, but he just drives me nuts sometimes, and so I don't want to date him... but ughhh is it horribly wrong to want to be with him, even after a year? SO CONFUSING! And to make matters worse, those awkward romantic movie situations would happen, you know, the awkward pause right before a kiss- those pauses kept happening (fyi- nothing happened between us!) but I kept getting little flip-flop butterflies in my stomach... which, funny thing.. THEY DO NOT FEEL GOOD when you've been fasting for 2 days and have barely eaten otherwise.

anyways, this ended up being longer than expected, so have a good weekend everyone and I'll try my very best to post Monday (I have 2 exams Monday so don't hold your breath)

Love you all and hope you're all doing terrifically!

Day 16!

oh today, today today.
Today went well, and I'm really happy about it!

I had basically my entire 200 calorie allotment all at once around lunchtime, but whatever. I was cold and had just gotten home, and I went into the kitchen to make myself a tea to warm me up, but instead I opted for a hot chocolate with a bit of whipped cream which equals about 190 cals. But hey, it was deeeeelishhhh. Best decision I made all day!

In the evening I went for a lonnggg run because I was feeling a bit antsy, that took jsut over an hour (-750 or so) , followed by my workout (-300) and I did my usual power walk to school in the morning (-248)

Sooo, the total:
In: 200cal
Out: -1298
Total: -1098

Super excited to fast tomorrow, plus kickboxing class again, which will be fun!

Now, onto the bad news. I didn't get a part in RENT, but ohhhhh well! I'm still going to volunteer to help out backstage and such, hopefully with costume design or prop design or something, since I looove that kind of thing.

But I must get off to studying. I apologize in advance if I don't post again until Thursday night, but I have midterm examinations and such that I must put on top priority!

Love yous!

Day 15

Day 15.

Today was really good. The weather's getting cooler, which means it's at that perfect medium for running, where it's not too hot that you're dying, but not too cold that your lungs are seizing up.

I had my first spin class today, it was marvellous! I burned over 450 cals in a 45 min class, not too shabby.

I also wasn't feeling up to par today, so I didn't eat anything, but ohhhhh welll. I'm not going to sweat over it, better to eat too little than too much, right?

Anywayssss I'm just getting home from class, and should probably get to bed, so...

Day 15:
Cals in: 0
Cals 0ut: -450
Total: .. do the math

Toodaloo <3

25 Things

As per request of Beth; 25 things about me. See if you can do it too!

1.  I’m the most creative, and the least creative person you will ever meet. Ask me to come up with something for a purpose (ie. Halloween, art project, etc)- I’ve got genius ideas. Ask me to come up with 25 things about myself, or give me a broaddddd topic to write an essay about and I can’t pick a topic for the life of me. 

2. I’m a redhead- Contrary to popular belief, I like to think that I have a soul-but it’s probably only because I collected them and won them in bets during my childhood/teen years (I like to plan ahead)

3. I love sports, and I’m crazy athletic in the more dangerous ones- I get a thrill from rugby, hockey, I’ve snowboarded for 14 years, and almost died/broken bones doing all of these sports because I like to follow the rules of “Go big or go home”- when I was young and taking snowboard lessons, I was the only girl in a freestyle class of all boys, that’s something that my instructor taught me- I had to be like one of the guys in order to make it with them. It worked great

4. I forgive too easily. I used to think that I was a real hardass and could hold a grudge to the end of time (and I can in some cases) but when it comes to people who have really hurt me, I mean really done damage, I forgive them way too easily. I can’t really explain it other than the fact that its usually the ones that are the closest to me that do the most damage, and of course they’re the ones I miss the most and want to forgive.

5. I love the smell of fire smoke, but I can’t stand it when someone blows their cigarette smoke in my face, especially when I’m running by them during a workout

6. I’m really dedicated to my workouts, I love to run, and with my ED it’s almost compulsive for me: I once ran a 5km race (and had my best time ever) with 2 broken ribs and a broken wrist.

7. I’m really opinionated, which makes me a bad friend because I’m often not willing to compromise. I often don’t realize I’m being a stubborn mule. I’m usually the dominant personality of my friends, so I usually end up getting what I want – which is baaaaddddd

8. I love the fall, it’s my favourite season. I love that it’s not sweating hot out, but not freezing cold either. I love the smell of crisp leaves on the ground and I love the colours that my town turns. Also, Halloween is my favourite holiday, even topping Christmas.

9. I’m a crazy Marvel nerd. I would do anything to meet Stan Lee, the man is probably my idol. I’m definitely the most knowledgeable person I know about the X-Men, which is funny because boys always try to impress me with what they know and I just shoot them down with my hardcore knowledge- I find it hilarious. They get embarrassed because they were out comic-ed by a girl.

10. My favourite food in the entire world is French fries dipped in a frosty from Wendy’s. Lots of people tell me that I’m gross for that combination, but I love it- combo of salty and sweet, it’s perfect. But it has to be Wendy’s- other fast food places don’t hold a candle to it.

11. My favourite/ lucky number is 11

12. I say willies instead of rainboots, I can’t pronounce the word “inevitable”- for me it comes out with “m”s in it

13. I’m terrified of heights, but I love the thrill that the fear gives me, so I often find myself in high places with no way down.

14. I’m easily distracted, easily excited but not easily impressed, although I’ll always be polite about it.

15. I’m ready for the rest of my life to begin. I’m tired of school, I’m tired of searching for who I want to be, and I’m ready to just be.

16. I’m an artist, I love to draw and paint. My best portraits are drawings and my best paintings are scenery- I inherited this from my great grandmother who was a scenic painter. The only person I’ve ever had a terribly hard time drawing is myself- I’ve never gotten it right.

17. I love the smell of fresh lilac, but not when it’s bottled. My favourite flowers are lillies and bleeding hearts.

18. I stutter when I’m nervous or tired and I stress easily over life, not school.

19. I’ll be the best friend you ever had, and the worst enemy you’ll ever encounter. I’m the friend that will go out in the line of fire to take bullets and back you up, but if you’re on my bad side, I’ve been known to make people miserable.

20. I love the colour green

21. I use words like “ace” and “cants pyjamas” in daily talk, I mostly listen to music from the 80s, I’m an 80s teen at heart, even though I’m a 90s baby.

22. I’m bilingual, but when I get frustrated, upset or just highly emotional, I switch to French and don’t usually realize I’m doing it (this also happens when I’m drunk). I also speak fluent sarcasm and can decipher drunk texts.

23. I’m hemophilliac- when I bleed, I bleed a lot and for a long time- but I don’t get the crazy pain and bruising that usually accompanies hemophillia

24. I love musical theatre, but I could never date a musician again- I fell hard and fast when I was young and haven’t successfully loved another musician

25. I live my life by the wise words of the Frizz- “Take chances, make mistakes, get messy”- it’s worked well for me so far, and for the most part, I have no regrets.

Day 14!

Just a quickie since I posted this morning,
Today went great! I was well under the 350 limit
I had some yogurt (35 cals) an apple (80 cals) and some hot chocolate (100 cals), putting me at 215 out of 350, and I miiiighttt have some more hot chocolate before bed, which still leaves me under my limit. Unfortunately I did NOTHING for exercise, but whatever, I've got a spin class in the morning, so I'll make it up then!
Ciao Bellas! xo

So Sorryyy :) Updates and News

So Sorry I've been M.I.A for the last few days, but I have SOOOOO MUCH to share!

Let's backtrack. We all know Friday wasn't a shining moment for me, I'm over it, whatever. But after that little mishap of a day, I made the decision to, like Beth, not weigh myself until the last day of my diet, that way I won't be stressing over a single pound gained or lost or whatever.

Onto Friday night- Be proud of me! Friday night, a bunch of my friends from the resort I worked at a few summers ago came up to visit at school (like 5 of us from the resort live in my area, so it worked well). One of my friends is working WAYYY up north, like in the wintery areas of the Yukon- he's a teacher- but he had the week off, so he came Friday to visit too! He's one of my best friends, so I was super happy to see him. Of course that meant a party was going down, with the drinking and the post-bar eating... which is BAAAADDD. But not for meeee! Super Conscience to the rescue! I did not drink a DROP! -Partially because I blame alcohol on my weight gain over the summer I worked at the resort in the first place, and secondly because of the big day I had coming up Saturday (I'll get to that)! So it was great! I didn't drink, which meant I could drive my ass to and from the party- I didn't end up going with everyone to the bar (Instead, I came home and worked on my Halloween costume with my roommate :) haha)- so yes, I had a rather good Friday night if I do say so myself.

NOW SATURDAY- Saturday was easy, and I was definitely under 400 calories. Now, I don't know my exact intake because I was too super busy to keep track of it, but I only ate a couple of yogurt cups (35 cal each) and had some hot chocolate to drink (less than 200 cal). So I think I can safely say I was way under the 400 calorie limit. Now, I didn't really get my workout in yesterday, but I did have an hour long dance lesson (it wasn't super intense or anything, but I'm sure it worked off a hundred cals or so)

So, are you all waiting to hear why I was so busy yesterday? Well here it is: I was busy getting ready for an audition! EEK! Yes, my school this year is doing the production of RENT, and I decided that since RENT is one of my alltime favourite musicals, I might as well take a stab at being in it. Now, normally, I Don't Sing. I'm a pretty good singer, yes, but I don't really enjoy showcasing that because most of my good singer friends I know are really douche-baggy about their talent, and also I always have that fear that I'm not actually as good as I would like to think that I am, and so I just don't like to put myself into that situation. But, I am relatively comfortable acting on stage. I've been in many a school play, and I once had a 4 page (like 7 minute) monologue that I had to preform in the middle of a play. So for me, monologues are old hat, right? NOPE. For some reason, my delightful little brain decided-  "hey, know what would be fun? Let's fuck with Leigha and make her sing better than usual, but bail hard on the monologue". So I sang my two contrasting songs (no music, just me hoping for the best)- I've never sung a cappella (without music) before, but I rocked it. I was a little nervous at first, but I nailed it overall. Then the monologue came... I bailed hard on the first line. I tried again. I bailed HARD on the second line. They still, let me try again (the judges were super nice and understanding that its fucking NERVE WRACKING being up there in front of them) and FINALLY I managed to get the whole thing out on the third try- with a little bit of emotion and such, but not nearly as much as I had practised with... So unless I was the best singer they've ever heard, I'm probably going to end up not getting a part (in which case I'll just volunteer to be a crew member, because I'm a rockstar at costume design, set design, hair and makeup ANDDD backstage- I know, I'm multi-talented: fun fact:  I used to want to be a costume designer, and since grade 7 to current I've always made my own costumes for Halloween

Now on to Halloween! SO I started making my costume this weekend! I'm being Miss Frizzle from the Magic School Bus

 But, I've made a few modifications to her outfit. First of all, I bought an UGLY ASS DRESS, cut it apart to smitherines and made it short, gave it lots of boob action, and made it cuuuute. That's about as far as I've gotten right now. I don't have a sewing machine, nor do I even really know how to use one, so I'm doing it all by hand, but it's going well so farrr! My plan is though, I need to loose as much weight starting now as possible before Halloween, because last night, I had made most of the dress (at this time it had skinny straps to hold it up). Then I sewed on the jacket part (which needed to be done) and when I tried it on again, I guess the sewing had tightened the whole thing up, because now it's tiiiight on my boobs! haha It's not a big deal, and it's wearable, but I'm going to be intense about my exercise (more than usual hopefully) to try and make it fit a little bit better on me for the big day!

Anyways, That's all for now! I'll post tonight on today's (350 cal) status

uh ohhhh day 11

okay so today wasn't a HUGEEE failure, but I was definitely over 150 cals which (N) thankfully the lovely Beth saved my sanity after a slight meltdown over a piece of banana loaf (It's late, I promise to go into more detail tomorrow)

Anyways, unfortunately I was a lazyy SOB today too so I only had a small workout today

Soo here's the total damage:
In: 190ish
Out: 248
Total: -58

Hopefully tomorrow will be better, I'm probably going to cut my intake short to make up for today, and it'll all be balanced for this weekend...

Oh, also, I'll TRYYYY to post tomorrow, but I'm going to be crazy busy so I may not be able to get to it until Saturday morning, but I'll have LOTS to tell you guys about at that time so look out ;)

Love ya's! xo

Day 10

Well today was interesting... I feel so faaattttt today, yet my fasting today went well as hoped. So Idunno why I feel all gross today, butttt I do. Hopefully tomorrow is better. I feel like fasting is so much easier than eating because once I start to eat, I get the urge to binge, which is baaaadddd.

As much as I really want to fast again tomorrow, I know I probably shouldn't, so I've already planned out what I'm going to eat tomorrow and I'm determined to stick with it. I love the empty feeling in my stomach, and I'm so glad that this week is all low calorie allotments because hopefully that means I'll be able to continue doing well.

Today I went to my kickboxing class, it was fun as usual. To warm up, I did 10 minutes on a bike (I was actually just killing time while whatever class before me ended, but hey, according the the bike, I burned 110 calories, so that's a plus right! So for today, I'm at:

Cals in: 0
Cals out: -475

It's been pouring rain all day today, so I didn't get to do my usual run, and I didn't feel like doing my usual post-run workout since we basically do a longer version of my workout at the end of my class, but still, almost 500 cals out, not too bad. Also, it's supposed to rain all week which will SUCK so I'm hoping it stops long enough for me to run, otherwise I'll probably go use the bike forever at the gym and burn as many cals as possible!- I'll let you all know how that goes though.

Day... 9?!

Wow, day 9 already!

Can I really count today as day 9? I know I cheated this weekend, but fuck it, today is still day 9!

Just a super short post today because I'm exhausted! I fasted all day today, and did really well, did my usual power walk to and from school (approx -240 cals) and then later I decided to go for a 10km (hour long) run, followed by my usual workout (-300)

So that leaves me for today:
Cals in: 0
Cals out: -1296

I think I may have overdone the exercise a bit today though, I'm rather dizzy right now, but it's so worth it! Tomorrow is another day of fasting and I have kickboxing, so I probably won't run. Another great thing about fasting all day is that I got a TON of schoolwork done today, and now I'm getting to bed early so I'll be all energized for tomorrow (hopefully)

Goodnight all! xox

Over the Weekend...

I'm Backkkk!!!!
I missed you lovelies so so much while I was away, you have no idea how much I caved without the support that blogging gives me.
I feel like it's been forever since I posted! I mean, I've been doing so much better with my posting daily and my eating and such, and to go and throw that all away because of Thanksgiving weekend was such a shame. And unfortunately I mean that in both respects. Yes, this weekend I knew I wouldn't be able to post easily, so I'm posting today for the whole weekend. But unfortunately, eating this weekend didn't go as well as I had hoped.

I've already posted about Friday and my dinner out and such. After dinner was fine though, so I don't think I did too horribly there. Saturday I worked out for an hour on the elliptical and then did my regular workout (which works out to about -749cals. My dad made me waffles for breakfast (340 cals) yogurt for lunch (50cals) and then turkey dinner and pie for dessert (no idea what the cals are on that because I wasn't able to measure anything!) I hate being away from my house because when I'm on my own, I'm able to measure the amount of what I'm eating and then calculate the calories... but when I'm away, I can't do that and it freaks me right out! For the dinner, I had about a tablespoon each of sweet potatoes, peas and carrots, two pieces of turkey (each piece is about the size of 2 of my fingers wide and my index finger long, so not big) and then a teeny (less than a tsp) of gravy because the turkey was a little dry. So I don't think I did too bad there, but then dessert was so decadent, it had to be like 500 calories or something. It was soooo good, but I was so disgusted in myself afterwards, and by the time I got home (we were at my grandparents apartment) there was no point in purging.

Sunday was no walk in the park either. I had an egg and toast and bacon (ugh-again made by dad- like 600 cals) for breakfast and skipped lunch in order to work out. I was so disappointed in myself that I ran outside for 30 minutes, then did interval training on the elliptical for an hour, followed by my usual workout (-1347). Then for dinner we had shredded pork in barbecue sauce with salad. I kept the portions super super small but I still feel awful about it because I don't know everything that went into dinner and so I don't even have a guess to how many calories went into my body.

Then today. Thank god I was able to leave my parents house around lunch time because I'd be dead right now if I hadn't. Today, I had planned to fast, but because my travel plans got pushed back, I had to have breakfast with the family ( I managed to opt out of french toast and just have peanut butter and honey on toast instead) and then for lunch I had a grilled cheese sandwich. So naturally, I not only feel like shit in my stomach because I'm not used to eating so much, but I also feel like shit in the sense that I ate so much and I'm a disgusting PIGGG. It's been crazy hot weather all weekend, so once the sun starts to set in another hour, I'm going to go for an hour long run followed by my usual workout (-1048cals) to make up for today, but I still really hate myself. I'm not going to let myself have the 500 calorie allotment tomorrow, instead I'm going to fast for the next 2 days (Wednesday is a fast day) and get back on track for Thursday.

As soon as my time of the month is over I'll weigh myself, but I imagine I've probably gained back all of the weight that I lost last week thanks to this weekend. But I WILL stay positive, I'm going to be where I want to be by Halloween, and since I'm not going anywhere for a while, it'll be really easy to stick to the diet now. I'm going to do my best to up my workouts now in order to make up for the damage of this weekend, and hopefully I can fix myself.

Now onto boys
Of course, it wouldn't be a post by Leigha if there wasn't a slight discussion about boys. So here it is. I saw my best friend in the entire world this weekend. We'll call him Rocky (because he's a rockstar ahaha). Anywayssss we've been best friends for ages, and back when I dated my ex, he constantly accused me of cheating on him with Rocky. For the record, I never did, and to this day (over a year later) I still have not hooked up with Rocky, even though I've had countless opportunities to do so. So here's the thing. Rocky and I are perfect for each other, he's head over heels for me and has been for as long as we've been friends. And me, well I'm in complete denial about the whole ordeal. See, I love Rocky, to death but I'd rather die than risk ruining our friendship. And Rocky, well he's sweet enough that he's never even tried to make too intense of a  move on me because he doesn't want to put me in an uncomfortable position, or scare me off (because let's be honest, I'd bolt), because he doesn't want our friendship ruined either. (He made a move on me once last year, while we were both drinking, I was having an awful night, and it was easy to blow off but he's been good otherwise). Anyways, so we hung out last night, it was great and all that jazz, we literally act like a married couple: my mom came down the stairs and he and I were lying on the couch watching a movie- I was lying with my feet up at the end of the couch, and he was lying the other way with his head in my lap- no awkwardness or anything, that's just how we are together. My mom insists that we were made for each other but I'm just too afraid to loose him as a friend and I know the ball is in my court, so any decisions about my and Rocky's future is up to me.

Oh, and to make it worse, Rocky is one of Ducky's BEST FRIENDS! UGHHHH! This is where it gets messy, because I really like Ducky and would love to try and see how we would work out, but I don't a) want to hurt Rocky, and b) I don't know how much Ducky knows about me and Rocky's relationship. UGHHH so much confusion! I cannot WAIT until the 29th to figure things out with me and Ducky face to face! I talk to him all the time, and I want to just casually throw in the conversation -"oh hey, we should go out sometime!" but I don't think he'd ever tell Rocky about what he thinks about me, and I don't have any tight guy friends that I could run this shit by, so I don't know the protocol on this stuff. helllppppp!  ahha

Anyways, that's all for now! Tomorrow I shall fast and this week is going to be ME time- in which I FIGURE SHIT OUT! ughhh!

Day 5

Just a quick post as I head out the door to go home, I dont know if I'll get to post at all this weekend, so if I don't, I'll do a full update on Monday night when I get back!

Today's fasting went really really well, up until my ex (we're friends still) asked me to go out to dinner before I head home. I said yes of course because I didn't want to be rude. Besides, he was paying. I ended up getting fish and some veggies, so at least the calories won't be super ridiculous, but still, I'm sooo disappointed in myself. Also, my total workout for today is NADA, so tomorrow I'll have to go extra hard to make up for today and I'll have to kick my own ass for the rest of the weekend to make up for dinner out tonight and thanksgiving dinner tomorrow.

Good luck everyone with the weekend! <3  

Day 4

I'm in so much pain today! Kickboxing 100% kicked my ass, but it feels great (or so I keep telling myself)

Fasting today has gone wonderfully! I've had tons of water, I did my usual power walk to school (-124), then went for a run (-374) and did my workout (-300) this afternoon! And now I'm stiff beyond belief but it was so worth it! Now to do it all again tomorrow!

I find fasting days easier than low calories because once I get snacking, I find it super hard to stop because I start craving stuff. (Plus today the pain in my legs is a million times worse than my stomach being hungry hahaha). When I fast, I can avoid the kitchen at all costs and I'm fine! Also, I think I find fasting so much easier because of the mentality that I've always had about fasting. Whenever I go on long stretches of fasting or crazy restricting, I'm always inspired to keep going by the fact that Gandhi went 21 days with no food, and he only took sips of water (I guzzle it like crazy and intend to keep it that way). Anyways, that thought is what always motivates me and I thought I'd share it with you guys in case you needed some inspiration of your own <3

I'm heading to bed now I think, I'm sooo stiff I'm hoping that sleep will help so I can go on another run again tomorrow.

ABC Day Four
Calories Allowed: 400 fast
Used: 0
Workout: -798
Net: -798

I planned on weighing myself tomorrow and posting, but that's going to have to wait a week because I had the unfortunate delight of getting my period yesterday, and that always causes me to put on a few pounds so I refuse to weigh myself until it's over :)

Halloween!

So I'm in class right now and bored our of my mind because unlike Run I'm TERRIBLE at math, hate stats with a firey burning passion, and therefore have ZERO desire to pay attention. So I'll use my phone to blog!

Halloween is approaching tres vite! And I'm slightly freaking out with excitement! I was talking to Ducky the other day (ps he's been giving me lots of attention lately and I loooove it!) anyways, he's for sure coming down to visit for Halloween and our friends are for sure having a partayyy! BUT this means I need to find THE. PERFECT. COSTUME. it needs to be the perfect combination of awesome and scandalous! There's going to be a costume contest, so a rocking costume would be nice (I'm playing with the idea of Ms. Frizzle from the Magic School Bus because people will love that, but I want a semi-revealing but not outright slutty costume! I must strike the perfect balance to catch Ducky's eye. Oh and also, I alwayyyyyysss make my own costumes which is awesome buy puts a limitation on what I can do. So if anyone has suggestions feel free to make em!

Sooo excited! Sorry I'm so boy crazy today, but on the plus side it's definitely motivating my weightloss! As for today, I'm fasting, it's almost noon and I'm doing great so far, I'll post later with an official update ;)

Day 3

So I'm really proud of myself today! I had a kickboxing class today (my first one ever) and I did really well. It kicked my ass for sure, but who cares, it felt great! I haven't been all that hungry today either, so I've only had 135ish calories (way under the 300 limit) but it's only 6:30pm so that may change (doubts though, I have another night class tonight)

As some of you may know, next Monday is Canadian Thanksgiving, which means I'll be going back home for the weekend. I'll be leaving school late on Friday night, and then Saturday is when we'll have our big family dinner. Sunday I'm stuck at home and Monday I head back to school. SOOOO I'll be making a slight adjustment to my ABC diet so that I don't die or get in shit from the famjam this weekend. What I'm going to do is fast tomorrow and Friday: by the time I get home Friday night, I'll be able to just tell everyone I already ate, or that I'm tired in order to avoid eating. Then Saturday I'll skip breakfast (which won't be hard at all) and I'll attempt to skip lunch (or if I can't I'll have something small like yogurt or salad) That way, on the advice of the lovely Beth, I can eat whatever at the dinner! I was originally only going to fast Friday and Sunday, but then I realized that Sunday I'll still be at home, and fasting won't be an option. But I should be able to keep the cals around the alotted 300.  Then I'll fast Monday (or have a super small intake of cals) because I'll be driving most of the day back to school and such, and Tuesday I'll get back to the regularly scheduled diet!  Yay for planning ahead! I just thought I'd post it here to remind me/motivate me and such.

Anyways, off to class (dislike) have a good night loves!

ABC Day Three
Calories Allowed: 300
Used: 135
Left Over: 165
Workout: -612
Net: -447

Day 2

Nothing much to say for today so I'll keep it short and sweet.
Stayed on track with the eating, it's just after 7pm now and I don't like to eat after this time, which is good because I'm at about 500 cals now anyways (which is what I'm allowed for today)
Power walked home from campus this morning and literally just got back from an hour long run, followed by the 100 workout (which I do basically after every run as a bit of a cooldown)

I should probably get to doing some homework now, so hopefully a longer, more interesting post tomorrow!

ABC Day Two
Calories Allowed: 500
Used:500
Left Over: 0
Workout: -884
Net: -384

Ana Boot Camp: Day 1

Well, today started off with a shitty start. I was supposed to go to a spin class with my friend from school first thing this morning. I was SUPER Excited, got up super early to get stuff done before I had to leave, annnnddd at 8am (an hour before the class) she texted me to tell me that she had only gotten 3 hours of sleep last night and blah blah blah she wasn't going. A few things. First of all, I haven't yet signed up for this gym (because I used to go to a different gym in the winters and when there's no snow, I exercise outside) and I NEED HER TO GO WITH ME TO SIGN UP! This gym is on like a referral basis only and so I couldn't go to the class without her even if I wanted to.  Secondly, this friend, who we'll call AM, is a compulsive liar. Everyone has caught her in lies and so our entire friend group knows it, but she's a really nice girl when she's not pissing us off, so nobody's called her out on it... but she's constantly saying things to make you feel sorry for her or to draw attention to herself and it's just stupid (Like saying that she got 3 hours of sleep tonight or we'll have a sleepover and she'll say she didn't sleep at all when I know she did, or she lies about food- complaining that she hasn't eaten in 4 days when you just saw her at McDonalds, and the MOST ANNOYING is when she lies about school- she'll cry whine and complain about how she works SO HARD at school studying and such but she can't seem to get good grades. I understand that some people just retain information better, but she and I are in the same program, I do probably less than half of the amount of studying and crap that she allegedly does, and my marks are over 20% higher than hers because she a) doesn't utilize her study time properly, and b) SHE DOESN'T ACTUALLY STUDY AS OFTEN AS SHE SAYS!
Sorry, I know I've gotten off track, but whatever.  I just get so frustrated with her and her lies sometimes. But I really don't have any proof to back up my claims that shes a compulsive liar so there's nothing that I can do about it.
Needless to say though, I've done a total of 0 exercising today, and don't really intend on doing any later either. I'm headed over to the school for a class now (I'll walk- there and back is about 3km) but that'll likely be the extent of my exercise today. Fortunately, my eating has been wonderful and I'm currently only at 204 calories and it's 2pm, plus today I'm going to be on campus from 2:30-10pm (meetings, classes, etc) so that should limit my food intake too!
I downloaded a few apps for my iPod touch that will help me to keep track of my net total calories, so here's to hoping that this bootcamp goes well!
Oh! Another plus to today! I weighed myself anddddd I didn't gain a single pound on my weekend away at home! Yay! I actually lost like half a pound!

EDIT: Final Results of Day One!
Workout today: power walking to and from campus: -207
Calories Allowed: 500
Used:468
Left Over: 32
Net: 261

So much to share today!

I have so much to write today! But not a lot of time to do that, soooo I have to make this one quick!
First of all, you all know I came home to visit for the weekend. The eating and such, not going awfully, not going great, BUT I went shopping with my my mom  yesterday, and I bought a TON of stuff, including a brand new, beautiful leather jacket, which I am only going to allow myself to wear as a reward for losing 10 lbs! :)
Also on my shopping trip, I bought two cute new bathing suits because... big announcement coming up.... (drumroll*) I'M GOING TO CUBA! Right after Christmas, with a couple of my friends, the trip was booked yesterday (literally an hour after I bought the bathing suits actually). We'd been talking about doing this trip for a while, and so I bought the suits because they were SO cute and I didn't want to miss out, and then an hour later my friend called to tell me she'd booked it!
Anyways, The suits are a tad too small, which will force me to lose the weight I want to in order to look amazing on my trip!
Finally, Beth posted on her blog that she was thinking about doing the ABC Diet starting on Monday. I think that this is a great idea, and I'm going to join in and I thought I would just mention it here too in case anyone else wants to join!
But I must run now, stay strong! xo