So I've jumped on the "blogging on my cellphone" train, well see how that goes.
So far, its deleting me every time I misuse the capitol letter "I" as in "I've", "I'm" and just plain "I" soooo wish me luck!
I'm desperately posting from my phone because sitting here, in such a terrible mood, no internet and I just want to cry.
First of, the boy made me get subway for dinner. I mean made. I bought fresh veggies yesterday to have tonight, had plans to bbq him some chicken but NOPE, that happen. I'm pretty pissed since I told him want it but had to eat it anyways.
I've aso been here for a few hours, and have been ignored the entire time. no internet, nobody is talking to me. wtf. The only thing keeping me here the insane wind going outside.
I'm so close to tears right now, and now I can't read what I'm typing, cool blogger. fuck you. and sorry aout the typos guys, random letters coming through and now can't see so I hope this turns out okay.
Ughhhh I know I'm just rambling now. But I'm just so frustrated with school, and life and food. I fucking hate that I have ZERO motivation lately!
Anyways, I'm going to just go crawl into bed and die
Love yous!
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
lol whoops
Well You'll be glad to know that I updated myself on all of your blogs this morning
and forgot to update MY OWN BLOG
Sooo Silly
Anywhoo, not much to update on, I've been gone for 2+ weeks, I know I know, but not a whole lot has changed!
Exams start soon... but I'm going to try my best to blog at least once (I can do better than that) twice a week!
I've been TERRIBLE with my intake lately
But I'm managing to maintain at 150 even, soooo as disappointed as I am in myself for not loosing, I can't complain because I haven't gained either woo!
HOWEVER! It's back to the grind this week! I SHALL SUCCEED!
I have SO MUCH to look forward to in the near future and I want to be able to use some of these things as rewards (I'll update more on said things as they get closer!)
SPEAKING OF GOOD THINGS: if you haven't read the Hunger Games SERIES yet (yes, I edited and added series... so many people just read the first one and are like "I hated the ending because it didn't wrap up, it just..ended. THATS BECAUSE THERES 2 MORE BOOKS!)... where the hell have you been? GO FUCKING DO IT- and then see the movie. I went to the midnight screening last Thursdayyy (woo!) and yeah. mixed feelings but overall content with the goings on of the film
BUT ITS BEDTIME!
Love you all ever so terribly!
and forgot to update MY OWN BLOG
Sooo Silly
Anywhoo, not much to update on, I've been gone for 2+ weeks, I know I know, but not a whole lot has changed!
Exams start soon... but I'm going to try my best to blog at least
I've been TERRIBLE with my intake lately
But I'm managing to maintain at 150 even, soooo as disappointed as I am in myself for not loosing, I can't complain because I haven't gained either woo!
HOWEVER! It's back to the grind this week! I SHALL SUCCEED!
I have SO MUCH to look forward to in the near future and I want to be able to use some of these things as rewards (I'll update more on said things as they get closer!)
SPEAKING OF GOOD THINGS: if you haven't read the Hunger Games SERIES yet (yes, I edited and added series... so many people just read the first one and are like "I hated the ending because it didn't wrap up, it just..ended. THATS BECAUSE THERES 2 MORE BOOKS!)... where the hell have you been? GO FUCKING DO IT- and then see the movie. I went to the midnight screening last Thursdayyy (woo!) and yeah. mixed feelings but overall content with the goings on of the film
BUT ITS BEDTIME!
Love you all ever so terribly!
Monday, March 19, 2012
oh me oh my
I know I know! I've been so overly, terribly MIA for the past 2 weeks! But I promise, that WILL change... soon...ish
I have 3 papers due this week, then I'm going on a roadtrip this weekend, but I'll be back Sunday, and I WILL post an update, and I WILL spend the day catching up on all of your posts! And hopefully I will be doing that in the beautiful sunlight. It's been so hot and sunny the past 2 weeks! Tonight I'm going for a run, in the beautiful, glorious heat!
I Miss you all terribly!
<3 xox
I have 3 papers due this week, then I'm going on a roadtrip this weekend, but I'll be back Sunday, and I WILL post an update, and I WILL spend the day catching up on all of your posts! And hopefully I will be doing that in the beautiful sunlight. It's been so hot and sunny the past 2 weeks! Tonight I'm going for a run, in the beautiful, glorious heat!
I Miss you all terribly!
<3 xox
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Just need to vent
Ughhhh!
I had a TERRIBLE day yesterday, in fact, I've been having a terrible few days now, and it's 10:00am and I'm already having another terrible day!
Sorry I just have to vent on here to you guys because none of my friends would understand.
So from the beginning: I have my puppy with me for 2 weeks (this week and next) because my parents are going to Florida and so I need to take care of him. My roommate however, freaked out over this (which is stupid because she LOVES dogs, but she doesnt want our landlord to find out (which he wouldnt unless someone told him because he doesnt just drop by unannounced) SO I've been staying at the boys' house. No big deal. They all love me, they love him... problem solved right?
Wrong.
I was doing GREAT on the lemonade diet, was up to 4 days, and then at the end of the 4th day, I got soooo sick (from doing the laxatives with it I think, because I've fasted 5 days no problem in the past if you recall) so I had a nap and when I awoke, the boy had made us some carb-loaded dinner (I'd have preferred soup, or fruits and veggies so to ease back into food and not shock my system)... but no problem, I still lost .6 lbs. I was fucking down to 150.2... UGHHHHH!
THEN THE NEXT DAY I came home from work and he had made chicken breast on a bun (not bad, 150ish cal overestimated) and then we had fucking SO MUCH JUNK FOOD!
153lbs
in one day. okay, not bad, it's just water weight.... I'm upset but I'll fast tomorrow and be back down at least a pound
tomorrow (yesterday) comes... kickstart the lemonade diet again, get home from school, he's made us another delicious looking meal to share this time at least (I had said I wasnt feeling well so he made soup and such)- made me eat it.... then dessert, later a muffin and hot chocolate. I don't even want to know what I'm at now.... I was so excited to be in the 140s! ughhhh!
Also last night: dog peed in the house 20 minutes after I took him outside... on one of the boys' beds.
the boy and I got in a fight over car keys because he was being a dick
I was crazy studying for a final that I have today (in a few hours- at the library now actually) and I don't get the material. I'm going to fail. I know I am... It's my own fault, I barely paid any attention to that class... but still... I'm so stressed... so everyone thinks that I'm overreacting to the exam stress and the dog stress when really I just want to be able to not eat.
Also, I've had nightmares every night since I started sleeping at the boy's house.... (which is stupid because without the dog I usually sleep there once/twice a week anyways)- so that's also been keeping me up.
As for today... well I got up and he had already poured me a bowl of cereal and brought it to me (in bed) as an apology for yesterday night
FAT FAAT FAAAAAAATTTT :( Sooooo I haven't weighed today... and I have no intention of doing so... but I imagine I'm probably back to 155... again... SO FRUSTRATED.
My plan is to just fast as much as I can during the days, and eat only dinner when he makes it at night (otherwise I'll go without). Next Thursday the dog goes back, I go home, and I can start the Lemonade diet again (Don't worry, I'll be careful- load up on fruits if I start to feel sick- also I found that I didnt do the laxatives every day either this last time because I didn't always have the time- but I still lost so whatevs)
I still fully intend on being 140 by the end of the month.... but I'm just so frustrated at the moment! :(
Hopefully you're all doing better than me!
I had a TERRIBLE day yesterday, in fact, I've been having a terrible few days now, and it's 10:00am and I'm already having another terrible day!
Sorry I just have to vent on here to you guys because none of my friends would understand.
So from the beginning: I have my puppy with me for 2 weeks (this week and next) because my parents are going to Florida and so I need to take care of him. My roommate however, freaked out over this (which is stupid because she LOVES dogs, but she doesnt want our landlord to find out (which he wouldnt unless someone told him because he doesnt just drop by unannounced) SO I've been staying at the boys' house. No big deal. They all love me, they love him... problem solved right?
Wrong.
I was doing GREAT on the lemonade diet, was up to 4 days, and then at the end of the 4th day, I got soooo sick (from doing the laxatives with it I think, because I've fasted 5 days no problem in the past if you recall) so I had a nap and when I awoke, the boy had made us some carb-loaded dinner (I'd have preferred soup, or fruits and veggies so to ease back into food and not shock my system)... but no problem, I still lost .6 lbs. I was fucking down to 150.2... UGHHHHH!
THEN THE NEXT DAY I came home from work and he had made chicken breast on a bun (not bad, 150ish cal overestimated) and then we had fucking SO MUCH JUNK FOOD!
153lbs
in one day. okay, not bad, it's just water weight.... I'm upset but I'll fast tomorrow and be back down at least a pound
tomorrow (yesterday) comes... kickstart the lemonade diet again, get home from school, he's made us another delicious looking meal to share this time at least (I had said I wasnt feeling well so he made soup and such)- made me eat it.... then dessert, later a muffin and hot chocolate. I don't even want to know what I'm at now.... I was so excited to be in the 140s! ughhhh!
Also last night: dog peed in the house 20 minutes after I took him outside... on one of the boys' beds.
the boy and I got in a fight over car keys because he was being a dick
I was crazy studying for a final that I have today (in a few hours- at the library now actually) and I don't get the material. I'm going to fail. I know I am... It's my own fault, I barely paid any attention to that class... but still... I'm so stressed... so everyone thinks that I'm overreacting to the exam stress and the dog stress when really I just want to be able to not eat.
Also, I've had nightmares every night since I started sleeping at the boy's house.... (which is stupid because without the dog I usually sleep there once/twice a week anyways)- so that's also been keeping me up.
As for today... well I got up and he had already poured me a bowl of cereal and brought it to me (in bed) as an apology for yesterday night
FAT FAAT FAAAAAAATTTT :( Sooooo I haven't weighed today... and I have no intention of doing so... but I imagine I'm probably back to 155... again... SO FRUSTRATED.
My plan is to just fast as much as I can during the days, and eat only dinner when he makes it at night (otherwise I'll go without). Next Thursday the dog goes back, I go home, and I can start the Lemonade diet again (Don't worry, I'll be careful- load up on fruits if I start to feel sick- also I found that I didnt do the laxatives every day either this last time because I didn't always have the time- but I still lost so whatevs)
I still fully intend on being 140 by the end of the month.... but I'm just so frustrated at the moment! :(
Hopefully you're all doing better than me!
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Ahhhh Much Better
Alright my lovelies,
Was back at the fasting hard today, and I believe it went exceedingly well
I'm now just hanging out and doing some homework
But alas, bad news. Is there ever any good?
Tomorrow I head home for the weekend, also, I'm starting the lemonade diet- yes to get into those blessed 140s, but also to actually cleanse (SHOCK!) but yes, I've felt like crap lately, and I need this
Unfortunately, after this weekend, I'll be spending the next two weeks with some friends, and mayyyy or may not be able to blog. I'll try my very very best, but just in case you worry, I won't be dead! <3
Was back at the fasting hard today, and I believe it went exceedingly well
I'm now just hanging out and doing some homework
But alas, bad news. Is there ever any good?
Tomorrow I head home for the weekend, also, I'm starting the lemonade diet- yes to get into those blessed 140s, but also to actually cleanse (SHOCK!) but yes, I've felt like crap lately, and I need this
Unfortunately, after this weekend, I'll be spending the next two weeks with some friends, and mayyyy or may not be able to blog. I'll try my very very best, but just in case you worry, I won't be dead! <3
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