Alright Alright!

Sooo I've been MIA for just over 7 days now, and I thought I'd just super quickly check in with all y'all to let you know that I'm still alive and kicking.

My travels thus far have done me some good... It might be the hours in a car and whathaveyou but still, it's been good. I spent 5 days travelling across the province, I went into Ontario for a bit, visited friends in Nova Scotia away at university, and now, I am back home! But not back blogging on a regular basis yet, so don't get too excited. I've got finals coming up hard and fast and that means that blogging will be on the backburner for me for the next month. I know. It sucks but I really need to get my shit together if I want to get into grad school. That being said, I'll still try to post AT LEAST once a week... Probably Mondays... with a weight loss update and such. Starting Next Week I'm going to start to weigh myself again. The ABC diet will be over (PS, I've been doing fabulously at it since I've been on the road and unable to eat) and It'll be like starting anew.

I've been running a LOT lately, I've realized that I'm getting close to crunch time and my vacation is merely a month and a bit away, which means I can't be ashamed to see myself in a bathing suit like I am right now. So I'm working my ass off at trimming my ass down (haah see what I did there? CLEVER)

Onto my life: BOYS (It wouldn't be a Leigha Post if there wasn't boy drama)
So Ducky is supposed to come visit two weekends from now- we'll see if that actually happens... I'm beginning to think that he only sees me as a friend... which sucks, but hey I guess you can never have enough friends, right?
But... then there's my ex- who is back in my life full force. Long story short, we broke up, had some (but not a lot) of drama between us, got over it, became friends, started hanging out more a few months ago, started doing it about a month ago.. annnd now I'm beginning to realize that this is too much. We clearly both still love each other, but we're both (especially me) too stubborn to admit it. He bought us tickets to see a play soon... I'm super excited but man things are starting to get complicated with feelings and shit..plus he's super good friends with my EX best friend (back-stabbing bitch) so I'm super scared that hes telling her stuff about me (even though I know he wouldnt- but shes manipulative like that)

In happier news, this bitch of an ex BFF put some pictures on facebook this weekend and it appears that she's put on a bit of weight (due to being away at university and drinking all the time) - is it bad that this makes me happy? I'm on the downwards slope to my goal weight and she's climbing the ladder. I don't know if it's just that I know how much I hate myself and my weight and this makes me feel better, but I'm not going to overthink something that is putting me relatively at peace and is driving me to loose as much weight as possible. I have a strong hate for this girl, like no other

Anyways, I'd love to write more, but I have to jet like 5 minutes ago! Hope you are all doing terribly well! xox

Less Posts; For Now

Sorry guys but it looks like I'm going to be posting a whole lot less (both blog posts and commenting on all of your posts as well)
This will just be for the month, I'll be back around Christmas! I've got a lot going on with school and such, and I'm going away for a few weeks as well so I wont have such good internet access there! I'll try to post when I can, and I'll still be dieting like crazy! I just thought I'd let you all know so nobody starts freaking out1

Hope you all do well while I'm gone! I'll miss you guys like crazy!

Dayyyy 38/39

Nothing special yesterday, I didn’t have time to go to my kickboxing class because I had a meeting at the same time to figure out school shit, so I figured alright sweet I’ll run later. But then later, there was a torrential downpour and I couldn’t bring myself to go run soooo I DID NOTHING which sucks because I decided not to fast yesterday (I was still under the allotted 450 cals for ABC though) but I decided not to fast because after my 11.5km run the day before I nearly died I felt so shitty.

But today I’m back to fasting, had a grapefruit smoothie this morning, and that’s it. Nothing else for the rest of the day! I’m going on another 11.5k run tonight and then some friends are coming down and we’re going to the bar (I know, empty alcohol calories annoy me ever so much) but I figure that since I haven’t eaten anything, I’ll be able to milk a couple vodka and OJs or something less caloric than beer or a sugary drink and that should suffice for getting me hammered (I hope) plus I figure I can dance off the cals and I plan to fast and do another 11.5km tomorrow and every day this weekend. This weekend I’ve cancelled all of my travelling plans so that I can focus strictly on fasting and exercising and homework ahaha! I’ll try to update again before the weekend ends, but in case that doesn’t happen, I’ll post again Monday for sure!

Lots of love! xox

Day 37

So yesterday was day 37. I cant believe how close I am to the end! I've really been diverting from the exact schedule, but I haven't gone over the calorie allotment in a while so I'm happy with myself.

Yesterday was a 500 calorie day, but I'm fasting this week (Monday-Friday). So yesterday, I had my grapefruit smoothie, a ton of green tea, some water and that's it. I also went for an 11.5km run (-1,206 cal)

Timeee to do it all again today!

Shit Just Got Real

Ducky's coming to visit the first weekend of December.

I'm so excited I'm shaking

I can't even function right now, screw my night class I'm skipping. I'm going to bed. I'm working out like crazy every day from now until then (not anything new but whatevs)

jafhdasjlfwejfasdjfklhajfhasdlf aaahhhhhh!

Sneaky Tricks

So, I've been home bored all day, and normally when I'm bored, I want to eat. But today, I've come up with a sneaky new trick for NOT eating. I'm fasting from today until wednesday (with the exception of my grapefruit smoothie in the morning) but I keep finding myself going to the fridge today.

Funfact about me, I HATE tomatoes. So, when I just found myself looking in the fridge again,  grabbed a cherry tomato and ate it instead of whatever else was in the fridge. Problem solved, I now don't want to snack. Yes, technically I ate, but cherry tomatoes are 4 cals each and you burn more than that digesting them anyways soooo I say, SUCCESS! I no longer want food and I didn't binge out.

What foods do you hate? Try it out!

Also, there's nothing for me to really report today. I've only had a grapefruit smoothie (new recipe, only 70cal now), I've done 0 exercise but I have waterpolo later (not sure what that burns but its at least 100 cal ahah) Sooo I'll post tomorrow with more interesting things to discuss!

Motivation Like No Other

Alright sooo, today I restricted like crazy, went to dinner and had a wrap (fairly good in cal, I'm content with today) but I did sweet F-All when it came to exercise because I was busy hanging out with ma soeur for the day.

Anywhoo, at the end of the day, guess who we got to have a dinner date with? The amazing Ducky, of course. Soooo went to dinner, super exciting, he was so super cute, lots of hugs, really sociable, never ran out of anything to talk about, it was great! He also managed to slip into conversation an invite for himself to come visit me at the end of the month (yep, HE INVITED HIMSELF! I'm so excited! That's got to mean something right?) It was super awkward haha he kinda just sneaked into the conversation some questions about where in town the busses come to and how often and such and I'm like hmmm "why do you ask?" and he was just like "oh in case I were to come down for a night or something to visit?"  SUPER CUTE!

After dinner we drove him home and he invited us inside for a tour of his house, then we eventually left after deciding that he's coming to visit at the end of November/ first weekend of December... which means I have a new 25ish day goal from today to get looking my best! I know it's not my style and such to loose weight for a guy, but I know he does just like me for myself and it kind of just motivates me like crazy to get to where I want to be!

EDIT: oh also, Ducky is like a foot or so taller than me, (HES SO TALL) but he's super skinny and I always feel like I'm going to break him in half (you know, when I sit in his lap and such ;) - oh love those times) so I always feel so embarassed when we hang out together, which is the main reason I want to "loose weight for a guy" its more that I don't think I can handle being with a guy who I'm afraid to snap in half

So unfortunately I couldn't fast this weekend with my sister here, then dinner with Ducky and such, so because Beth was fasting Friday-Monday  and I was going to do it with her (but couldn't) I plan to just fast Sunday-Wednesday. It's the same number of days, it'll be a great way to kickstart this new excitedness on life that I have anddddd yeah! That's about it for today!

I actually can't stop smiling! haha

I hope you're all having as great of a night as I am!

Love yous!

Day 32

Sooo I know I failed at posting last night like I promised, but ohhh well

Yesterday, nothing exciting happened.

It was a fast day, so I fasted, other than drinking a grapefruit smoothie in the morning (this time I mixed a grapefruit and an orange and ice). It tastes really bitter, but it's supposed to burn fat so I'm going to keep powering through the taste. I know it was a fast day, but I'm going to try drinking one every morning regardless. Otherwise I ate nothing.  I also went for a long run (-750 or something). Soooo

Day 32: Fast
Cals in: 100 (smoothie)
Cals out: -750 or so
Net: -650

Day 31

A late post from yesterday,

Nothing really exciting happened, I walked to and from class (-248) then went to the gym with Ami for kickboxing but she wasn't feeling well, so we just used the gym equipment instead so that she could go at her own pace and I could go more hardcore to burn more calories. So I did the bike for just over half an hour (-315 cals) then we did some weight machines and such and boy my arms are hurting today! Later in the evening I went for a run (-375 or so)

I know yesterday was an 800 day and all, but I was wayyy under, oh well. I just wasn't all that hungry.
For breakfast I had a grapefruit smoothie which I made myself so I don't know the exact cals (like 110 cal max though- used a whole grapefruit, some OJ and ice) and then later in the evening I was hanging out with friends and had a bit of ice cream (again, like 100- MAYBE 200 cal max- I only had a few spoonfuls)

so yeah, that was my day yesterday, I'll post again tonight about today, which so far has been going well!

Day 31: 800 calories allowed
Cals in: 300
Cals 0ut: -948
Total: -648

November- lets get our shit together.

Day 30
November 1st

Time to get serious. Time to get my shit together. Christmas and ultimate goal day is fast approaching at 54 days away. I have 54 days to loose at least 20 more pounds. I haven't been very good the past week and a bit, but that is all changing now. I went grocery shopping today, bought lots of ingredients for salad and soups and that's all I'm going to eat- I'll still be following the ABC diet, just I'll be eating only lettuce and soup in order to make up my calorie allotment.

Didn't get to run today because I was crazy busy, but I'll make it up tomorrow by running AND going to kickboxing. 

Time to get my shit together.