Just thought I'd keep you all posted! I went to the gym today and yesterday (for 2 hours each)! I'm pretty proud of myself on that... usually I just go for a 5k (25 min to half hour) run.
Also, I've been fasting for the past day and a half... and I feel great about it. Like, I reallyyyy want the crackers and cottage cheese I have sitting in the fridge, but I'm not hungry, I just want it...but I'll fight it... it's only a couple of days until we go!
It's driving me crazy not knowing my weight though (oh yeah, ps. I don't know my weight atm). I've been living with the boy-toy for the past week, and alas, that means no scale. SAAAAADDDFACEEEE but I'm sure I've been losing (for the last 2 days at least... I mean, I can't NOT be losing haha). Anyways, I likely won't be able to get to a scale until next weekend (aka the 9th ish) but I'll be sure to report then!
Speaking of next weekend... I'm going to my family's chalet for the weekend... and my sister is coming... she makes these FUCKING AMAZING DELICIOUS peanut butter chocolate squares. Honestly, they are probably my favourite things in the ENTIRE world. I'm soooo nervous for it, only having one or two over the whole weekend will be the biggest test of willpower EVER. But, Its still a week and a bit away, I'll have plenty of time to work my ass off until then and I'll be sure to run while I'm up there... so I'm trying to convince myself that everything will be okay!
Anyways, that's my life today... I don't think I have anything else to share today!
OMG NO edit: that's a lie! I have awesome (terribly catty) news!
Okay so I've mentioned "that bitch-slut ex-best friend" before, we don't need to go into the details about her other than I hate her EVER so much. Anyways, she went away last weekend and posted pictures yesterday of her outing with a mutual friend of ours... OMG SHE LOOKS TERRIBLE! I know it's awful for me to say, but who the fuck cares. Bitch ruined my life, I'm allowed to be happy at her weight-gain and poor clothing choices. Yes, she's gained some weight since ruining my life, which makes me a)that much more driven to lose and b) makes me terribly happy because I look awesome in comparison. But what's worse, is that she doesn't know how to dress for her weight (flattering clothing and whatnot) which just makes me SO HAPPY. Normally I would be empathetic and feel her pain and try to help (ie: if it were any of my friends) but FUCK THAT. I deserve to be a total bitch about this. Anyways, that's all. <3
Also thanks to the replies from everyone the other day! You gave lots of great Ideas that I'll definitely be trying out!
Live and Love- I totally thought about the tankini, but when I went to get all of mine out to see which to wear, it turns out that all of mine are at the chalet! GAH! And good idea! I'll bring my camera so I dont have to be in pictures! Thanks! <3
Emma- my love! glad to hear from ya! <3 xo! haha my friends, although many of them aren't smaller than me... (none of my closest friends are), but they still like to run around in their bathing suits... its all in the confidence... that I don't have with showing my body... until it's perfect. As for your sleeping on my back idea... thats hilarious and I've never heard of that before but I'm DEF going to try that haha it can't hurt! Thanks love! I'll let you know how it goes!
WeWillChange- haha fortunately, I'll be covered up during most of the rides and such by safety devices, but you're right, I definitely want to have fun!
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
my love-hate relationship with fun
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
my life.
My friends just decided that we're all going to hit the water park on the weekend.
Sounds awesome right?
WRONG.
What the hell am I going to wear?
I would LOVE to wear a bikini.
But... people
...crowds of people.
all... staring at my disgusting-ness
It's one thing for me to be comfortable in a bikini on a beach. There, I just lie in the sun... anyone who happens to look at me would think I look fucking fantastic. Because let's be honest. Lying down, I do. We all do. Gravity is a beautiful thing. Lying down, I have no belly, my hipbones stick out like an inch, and my legs look tiny (because I lie with them slightly up so the bottoms of my feet don't burn (yes, I have tanning down to a science)
But standing up.... that's a whole different ball of wax.
And pictures... photographs will be taken, they always are...
GAH MY LIFE.
I'm going to do my VERY BEST to basically fast and workout like crazy from now until the day we go (and not eat a damn thing the day we go so there's nothing sitting in my belly making it look big)
Sorry for the rant... any suggestions are SUPER WELCOMED
Tah-tah for now, I'll keep you all posted on how well not eating goes haha
my life.
My friends just decided that we're all going to hit the water park on the weekend.
Sounds awesome right?
WRONG.
What the hell am I going to wear?
I would LOVE to wear a bikini.
But... people
...crowds of people.
all... staring at my disgusting-ness
It's one thing for me to be comfortable in a bikini on a beach. There, I just lie in the sun... anyone who happens to look at me would think I look fucking fantastic. Because let's be honest. Lying down, I do. We all do. Gravity is a beautiful thing. Lying down, I have no belly, my hipbones stick out like an inch, and my legs look tiny (because I lie with them slightly up so the bottoms of my feet don't burn (yes, I have tanning down to a science)
But standing up.... that's a whole different ball of wax.
And pictures... photographs will be taken, they always are...
GAH MY LIFE.
I'm going to do my VERY BEST to basically fast and workout like crazy from now until the day we go (and not eat a damn thing the day we go so there's nothing sitting in my belly making it look big)
Sorry for the rant... any suggestions are SUPER WELCOMED
Tah-tah for now, I'll keep you all posted on how well not eating goes haha
Saturday, May 26, 2012
off topic...
I know this isn't my usual stuff, but omg so cute! Another perfect example of my love for Marvel Comics!
http://www.wimp.com/hearingaid/
Ps ill update later. on my phone at work atm. ugh
http://www.wimp.com/hearingaid/
Ps ill update later. on my phone at work atm. ugh
Friday, May 25, 2012
Holy Shit I'm Back
For reals.
I'm back
I'm soooo sorry I've been a terrible blogger/reader lately! I'm spending today catching up though, so get ready for ME!
I've missed you all soooo much!
I've been really sick lately, but I'm proud to report that I've managed to maintain my 149lbs, even though I haven't been eating well at all.
So... what's new with me? I'm in school and working for the summer, I'll be back and forth between my house and my family's chalet, so If I go M.I.A for periods at a time, don't fret, it's just because we don't have internet up there!
Now that I'm feeling better, I've gotten back to hitting the gym, and it feels sooo good.
I'm not sure what else there is to say right now, sooo I'll post again later!
To answer all of your previous questions though, Yes, I absolutely did see Avengers, was there ever any doubt? I may have been on my death bed, but my dad and I went on opening day!
love yous! <3 xo
UPDATE: Sooo, while I was gone, it appears a LOT of blogs I follow were deleted (SAAADDDD) anyways, I changed my "loves and links" tab to some inspirational pictures. I'll update them and such every once in a while.
ALSO: I'm still getting used to the new blogger, so if you're one of my newer followers, and I haven't returned the gesture, please let me know in the "notes" box and I'll be sure to go and do that right away! <3
I'm back
I'm soooo sorry I've been a terrible blogger/reader lately! I'm spending today catching up though, so get ready for ME!
I've missed you all soooo much!
I've been really sick lately, but I'm proud to report that I've managed to maintain my 149lbs, even though I haven't been eating well at all.
So... what's new with me? I'm in school and working for the summer, I'll be back and forth between my house and my family's chalet, so If I go M.I.A for periods at a time, don't fret, it's just because we don't have internet up there!
Now that I'm feeling better, I've gotten back to hitting the gym, and it feels sooo good.
I'm not sure what else there is to say right now, sooo I'll post again later!
To answer all of your previous questions though, Yes, I absolutely did see Avengers, was there ever any doubt? I may have been on my death bed, but my dad and I went on opening day!
love yous! <3 xo
UPDATE: Sooo, while I was gone, it appears a LOT of blogs I follow were deleted (SAAADDDD) anyways, I changed my "loves and links" tab to some inspirational pictures. I'll update them and such every once in a while.
ALSO: I'm still getting used to the new blogger, so if you're one of my newer followers, and I haven't returned the gesture, please let me know in the "notes" box and I'll be sure to go and do that right away! <3
Sunday, May 6, 2012
I know, I'm sorry
Hey guys,
So I know I've been a terrible blogger and hve left you all hanging this past month now, but right after exams, I got terribly sick, then I had one of my attacks (the non sexual kind)- ya I'm aware that my body is fucked. Anyways, blogging unfortunately has been like the last thing from my mind. I'm still ill, in and out of the lab or loodwork and tests and shit, but I'm feeling a bit better today, and our lovely Sasha emailed me this morning and I realized that you all must be thinking I've died so I thought I'd send a quick post to let you all know that I'm okay, aside from missing my computer because blogger from my phone is so fucking difficult, and hopefully I will be back on my feet in another week or so!
Love you all <3 xo
So I know I've been a terrible blogger and hve left you all hanging this past month now, but right after exams, I got terribly sick, then I had one of my attacks (the non sexual kind)- ya I'm aware that my body is fucked. Anyways, blogging unfortunately has been like the last thing from my mind. I'm still ill, in and out of the lab or loodwork and tests and shit, but I'm feeling a bit better today, and our lovely Sasha emailed me this morning and I realized that you all must be thinking I've died so I thought I'd send a quick post to let you all know that I'm okay, aside from missing my computer because blogger from my phone is so fucking difficult, and hopefully I will be back on my feet in another week or so!
Love you all <3 xo
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