Keeping You Posted!

Just thought I'd keep you all posted! I went to the gym today and yesterday (for 2 hours each)! I'm pretty proud of myself on that... usually I just go for a 5k (25 min to half hour) run.
Also, I've been fasting for the past day and a half... and I feel great about it. Like, I reallyyyy want the crackers and cottage cheese I have sitting in the fridge, but I'm not hungry, I just want it...but I'll fight it... it's only a couple of days until we go!

It's driving me crazy not knowing my weight though (oh yeah, ps. I don't know my weight atm). I've been living with the boy-toy for the past week, and alas, that means no scale. SAAAAADDDFACEEEE but I'm sure I've been losing (for the last 2 days at least... I mean, I can't NOT be losing haha). Anyways, I likely won't be able to get to a scale until next weekend (aka the 9th ish) but I'll be sure to report then!

Speaking of next weekend... I'm going to my family's chalet for the weekend... and my sister is coming... she makes these FUCKING AMAZING DELICIOUS peanut butter chocolate squares. Honestly, they are probably my favourite things in the ENTIRE world. I'm soooo nervous for it, only having one or two over the whole weekend will be the biggest test of willpower EVER. But, Its still a week and a bit away, I'll have plenty of time to work my ass off until then and I'll be sure to run while I'm up there... so I'm trying to convince myself that everything will be okay!

Anyways, that's my life today... I don't think I have anything else to share today!

OMG NO edit: that's a lie! I have awesome (terribly catty) news!
Okay so I've mentioned "that bitch-slut ex-best friend" before, we don't need to go into the details about her other than I hate her EVER so much. Anyways, she went away last weekend and posted pictures yesterday of her outing with a mutual friend of ours... OMG SHE LOOKS TERRIBLE! I know it's awful for me to say, but who the fuck cares. Bitch ruined my life, I'm allowed to be happy at her weight-gain and poor clothing choices. Yes, she's gained some weight since ruining my life, which makes me a)that much more driven to lose and b) makes me terribly happy because I look awesome in comparison. But what's worse, is that she doesn't know how to dress for her weight (flattering clothing and whatnot) which just makes me SO HAPPY. Normally I would be empathetic and feel her pain and try to help (ie: if it were any of my friends) but FUCK THAT. I deserve to be a total bitch about this. Anyways, that's all. <3

Also thanks to the replies from everyone the other day! You gave lots of great Ideas that I'll definitely be trying out!

Live and Love- I totally thought about the tankini, but when I went to get all of mine out to see which to wear, it turns out that all of mine are at the chalet! GAH! And good idea! I'll bring my camera so I dont have to be in pictures! Thanks! <3

Emma- my love! glad to hear from ya! <3 xo! haha my friends, although many of them aren't smaller than me... (none of my closest friends are), but they still like to run around in their bathing suits... its all in the confidence... that I don't have with showing my body... until it's perfect. As for your sleeping on my back idea... thats hilarious and I've never heard of that before but I'm DEF going to try that haha it can't hurt!  Thanks love! I'll let you know how it goes!

WeWillChange- haha fortunately, I'll be covered up during most of the rides and such by safety devices, but you're right, I definitely want to have fun!